When I was pregnant, I set a goal for myself to run a marathon within a year of giving birth to Baby ‘Bee. I was tired of being large, sluggish all the time, and unable to breathe. I longed to get back to my pre-pregnancy self! I was going to do it!
As with many things I said during my pregnancy, I just didn’t know what motherhood would be like and feel like. Finding time to fit in a run between nap times, laundry, and breastfeeding is a feat! Nobody told me that breastfeeding and working would be this hard.
Wait, that’s a lie.
Actually plenty of people did. But until you are in it, living the daily routine of pumping and feeding, you just don’t know how truly hard it is. Your body and your time no longer belong to you and you alone.
Whenever Fred and I see someone running at a bonkers time of day–for example, high noon on an 89 degree day, or in the middle of the soupiest humid day of the week–we often say to each other “really? She has 12 hours of daylight and she’s choosing to run now?!”
I was the crazy woman running in torrential rain on Labor Day. Those crazy runners may be moms trying to sneak in a run before baby wakes up. They may be moms that have a precious hour to spare before they have to feed the babe again. Or they may have spent a half hour to pump a bottle just so they could have this next half hour of their body to themselves. It may not be when they want it, or how they want it, but at least they get to run.
To fit in my runs, I am now sometimes that person running at high noon when I’d rather be at the beach with Baby ‘Bee. I’ve run in humidity so thick I don’t know if I’m sweating or it’s raining. I’ve run at 6am, 6pm, 9pm, and during plenty of happy hours! I’m not going to make that goal of running a marathon within a year of giving birth–there [quite literally] are just not enough hours in the day.
So when I see those runners today, I’ll just give them a mental high five. You go girl. Putting on your shoes and getting out the door is a feat in itself! And don’t we all deserve a little ‘me’ time?